It's More Than A Feeling

For the record. . .

I am seriously in LOVE with the Punk Goes. . . Series. I'm currently addicted to Punk Goes Classic Rock. Great Covers.

I'm really hoping to go to Warped Tour this year. Mayday Parade is playing amongst a plethora of other bands I rather enjoy.

Just found out the BSB are playing in ATL. . . during Maymester so I can't go. But they're playing in Valdosta too. . . not sure if I can make that one.

I got tacked on another responsibility at work with no pay raise :( I am a Recipe for Service Leader. Basically I help reinforce customer service. But I was promised if I pull this off and there is an attitude change amongst employees then I get a raise. We shall see.

Maymester is really fun. Computer Tech is actually kind of helpful. Bio is awesome. Learning a lot. I guess that's the point of college. . .

Workin' 9 to 5

The semester is finally winding down. Only one more final to go. I pretty much raped my Creative Dramatics Final. I'm pretty pleased with the way the semester ended. I'm just beat. I want so much from everything and I'm not sure when I'm going to get any of it. I'm so career driven and am very passionate about my job. I wish my colleagues felt the same. I understand this position is just a time filler for some, but this is something I want to persue. It's so frustrating, when someone has the job you want and you know you could do it better. But you can't have it because of circumstance.

Christopher proves himself time and time again that he is the man I'm destined to be with. We argue and fight ocassionally but the past 6 months have been absolute bliss with him. I am in love with him and can't wait to be his wife.

I've moved in to my new apartment and it's wonderful. I have my own bathroom and so much space to move around and decorate. It's wonderful.

Work is good. I'm too chicken to ask for a promotion. . . My closing manager is going away to seminary and will no longer be located at our store. So the question remains: will we hire another manager outside the store, promote from within, or make the current managment team pull crazy shifts and make do.

I really want to ask for it but I'm just afraid it will be a waste of breath. I work my butt off at this job and wish people cared as much as I do. When I leave this store I'm not done working, I'm still doing marketing stuff and most of it is for free. I hate it that I'm not appreciated and the times that I am it's because I've saved somebody else's ass. I know I am an asset to this store and that if I were not on the Marketing Team, things would not get done as effectivly as they have been now that I have been put on it.

I want a raise. I want to be a manager. But most importantly I want more from Marketing.

Will I get it?

Think Outside the Bun

Drive Thru- Placing Your Order at the Speaker Part 2
1. When placing your order you request a combination meal number please respond promptly with what beverage you would like to enjoy. We don't wanna ask you. It's a pain. Also don't request a Combination Meal if you only want the entree item and a side. That's not a meal. A meal comes with a beverage, side item, and entree.
2. If you would like water as your choice of beverage please specify if you would like it bottled or tap.
3. If you have listed off all of the items you would like to order, please let the headset person know that you have completed your order in a polite fashion. Awkward silences are no fun for both parties.
4. Do not pull away when the person on headset is speaking. That's rude. How would you like it if we cut the speaker box off while you were talking?

Drive Thru- Arriving at the Window
1. When you arrive at the window please have your money ready for payment. We don't want to waste 2 minutes of our lives waiting on you to locate your debit card. Get your life together and then you may procede to the drive thru. We're never going to get those 2 minutes back. On a good day a drive-thru can do as many as 147 cars in one hour. If we wait for customers on every transaction think how much time you've wasted of ours. We will never get that time back.
2. Greet the person at the window. It's nice :)
3. If the cashier does not ask you for any condiments or sauces and you would like some, politely let them know what kind you would like. Also, we know what you ordered and approximately how much sauce you are going to need with your order. Don't get crazy. You do not need 7 Chick-fil-A sauces with your 8 pack of nuggets.
4. For the record: KETCHUP IS A SAUCE. DO NOT ASSUME WE PUT IT IN THE BAG AUTOMATICALLY.
5. Your straws and napkins are in the bag. I promise.
6. The very popular red sweet and sour sauce that Chick-fil-A carries is called Polynesian Sauce. Please pronounce it correctly. PAUL-A-KNEE-SIAN.

These are the ways that actual customers have called the sauce. . .
*I did not make these up*
*Pomeranian
*Mandarin
*Hawaiian
*Pineapple
*Polapanesian
*Poly-what-sauce
*Sweet and Sowa
*That red sauce

7. Please do not add things at the window. A sandwich is fine, but not a milkshake...

Just so we clarify, Milkshakes are a work of culinary art. They take a bit to make. Here is the process. Grab a cup. Pour in the alloted amount of shake base. Insert proper flavoring. Dispense Ice Dream. Put on a dome lid. Hand Spin. Top with whipped cream and a Cherry.

It takes some effort. Don't order them at the window. Go through the Drive Thru again, or forego the frosty delight. You really don't need the calories anyway.

KEEP CHECKING BACK FOR MORE!

Give Me That Filet-O-Fish, GIMME THAT FISH!

This commercial is constantly playing in my head. . . I don't know why I think it's so funny, but I do. :)

Anywho, after many a bad interaction with inconsiderate customers at the Chick-fil-A, I believe it is high time that I write a blog about drive-thru and fast food etiquette. It's well over-due. I sometimes think that people just don't know that its rude. Let me enlighten you.

Drive-Thru: Placing Your Order at the Speaker
1. When approaching the speaker box, please refrain from listening to your ghetto blasting music. We cannot hear you placing your order.
2. If you drive and obnoxiously large truck with an obnoxiously loud engine, please cut your vehicle off while placing your order.
3. It is not necessary to shout into the box. We can hear you surprisingly well.
4. But please do not whisper into the box, or park your car several feet away from it. We can't hear you and it's annoying to have to ask you to speak up.
5. If for some reason your windows do not roll down, do us a favor and don't come through the drive-thru. We are judging you.
6. DO NOT TALK ON YOUR CELLPHONE WHILE PLACING YOUR ORDER. IT IS RUDE. Most establishments have signs saying to stay off the phone. Do it.
7. If you need a minute to look over the menu, just say so. We typically don't mind. The drive-thru menus are designed in such a way that you should be able to figure out what you want in less than 30 seconds. Should you be an indecisive person in nature, go inside. You're backing up the line.
8. Please place your order in a dialect that is understandable. No, we do not know what "Splender" or "Mayernaz" is. It is pronounced SPLIN-DA and MAYO-NAYZ. Please pronounce them correctly.
9. If you would like something special done to your order, perhaps having things bagged seperatly, well done, or with a certain garden item, please let us know at the box. We will be happy to take care of it when you place your order. It is annoying when we have already prepared your order for you and are handing it to you, but you have waited until the very last minute that you wanted something different.
10. For ridiculously large orders, or a lot of special things that need to be taken care of to your food, go inside. It will be quicker than if you go through the drive-thru, I promise.

More to come later. :)

This is Your Life, Are You Who You Want to Be?

The past few weeks have been rather stressful. But I have to say I am feeling rather accomplished in most aspects of my life.

Hero Night at Chick-fil-A went VERY well. Alex was very pleased and I feel we have re-established ourselves as a family restaurant. HOORAY!

I got to teach a workshop at Junior Thespian Conference. And from it I have been asked to apply for a summer internship in Roswell, Ga at Georgia Ensemble Theatre Conservatory. Hopefully I get it. I'm mailing off my resume today :)

And I'm going to try to activate a new phone this afternoon :) Off to work and class!

Train Up a Child in the Way He Should Go. . .

I'm really concerned about all of the proposed budget cuts that are going on not just at CSU but all University Systems of Georgia. What if they start cutting degree programs? The smaller ones are going to go first. . . Theatre Ed is exceptionally small. And we're the only school in the state that offers it. What am I going to? Do I transfer out of state? Or switch majors? I'm really concerened about my future. It's really scaring me and stressing me out, on top of midterms and projects. I mean education is such an important foundation for the future of America; why should we sacrifice things? There are other programs and things that should be considered before taking away from our education. It's really tough to be a college student right now with the economy the way it is. The only thing that we can rely on is our majors... what will we do if they take that away? We have the right to an education.

I'm just really worried :(

Just Keep Your Eyes On Me And Let Me Be Your Gravity

I want to get married.

It's an odd way to start a blog entry. . . but it's true.

Every time I run into a bookstore or pass a magazine rack, I'm drawn to the bridal literature. I spend my free time looking at dresses, daydreaming about my wedding day, trying to find an alternative to flowers since I loathe them so much. I love looking at engagment rings, fantasizing about what my life will be like when I'm married.

At the same time it scares me.

I'm convinced that Chris is the one. But. . . I don't know. We were talking about plans for the summer (we're both taking maymester courses)and he informed me that after May he will only have 5 courses left including an internship. So his projected graduation date? Spring 2011. Which is when I'm suppose to graduate. Am I? Negative. It'll be at least December. It scares me. . . I doubt very seriously that he will stay in Columbus. It depends on where he will get a job at. I'm aware that this is a year away, but then again its only a year away! What if he goes away and gets a job some place crazy like. . . I don't know Florida? Which is his dream place to live but I'll still be here. In Columbus. Alone. Without him. Look I can barely handle being away from him for a weekend, much less a SEMESTER. Is that obsessive? I am literally miserable when he's away from me. I just want to spend every day for the rest of my life by his side. And that's where I belong. I know some of you are remembering that we haven't dated for very long. . . but when you know, you know. I know it's cliche, but I have NEVER felt this way before. My parents came down to visit me on Friday and we went to dinner with Chris. When he left my mom said that when she watches the two us bicker and argue and eventually make up in the end for our stupid little fights, it reminds her of herself and my dad. They didn't date for very long either, and then got married. Granted after they got engaged my mom got prego so they kind of had to rush the wedding a wee bit.

Anyway, I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. I've never been so sure of something.

Work is going well. Being an Assistant Marketing Director is quite time consuming and stressful but I still love my job. Just wished it paid more.

I'm super stoked about moving out. Heather, Lindsey, and myself will either be getting a house or an apartment the first of May.

School is great :)

Besame Para Siempre :)

Right now seems like an opportune time to blog. Considering I have an hour till my next class and my fingers are frozen :)

Any who, this past week/ weekend was probably the best ones I've had in a long time. At work I got the opportunity to prove to my boss that I am leadership material and had some quality one on one time with him, explaining my career goals and what I want out of Chick-fil-A. I feel like I made some much needed progress. A few days later I was approached by him to attend our new marketing team meeting today. I'm not sure what time it's at but luckily I have to be there at 3:00 to work anyway. Excited does not even begin to cover how thrilled I am about this. I immediately set to work on coming up with creative marketing ideas and ploys to help bring in more revenue for our store and of course, make our store a community hot spot. A mere hour later one of my dear assistant managers came up to me and asked me if I was interested in a supervisor or management position. I informed him that after going on three years of working with this company NOTHING would thrill me more than to be considered. He let me know that he was going to speak with our boss and recommend me for a position :) HOORAY!

After kicking ass at work I got to hang out with Christopher. We packed our bags and headed up to Atlanta on Saturday for a weekend full of doing fun touristy things. I'll put some pictures up later. We started at the first Chick-fil-A restaurant ever created. For those of you who are behind on your history, it was originally called the Dwarf Grill founded by Truett Cathy. The next one to open would be the Chick-fil-A located in Greenbriar Mall. Anyway it was really cool because it was identical to Truett's Grill menus :) So I got my delicious Hot Brown and crushed ice. YAY!

We continued our journey up to the High Museum of Art and saw a bunch of really cool sculptures, paintings, and even furniture. I have to admit though, I was a bit disappointed because the DaVinci exhibit was there but it was all of his sketches from his inventions. AND EVERYONE WAS THERE. Ridiculous.

After leaving the High (and nearly dying from slipping on ice), we headed over to The World of Coca-Cola which is the place that manufactures the product responsible for my addiction. It was super cool! I had been to the old one before they moved it to Pemberton Place but this one was equally cool. Chris and I tried 64 different Coke products from all over the world. Some were good, some were disgusting. Specifically the Beverly from Italy. Why anyone would purchase such a beverage is beyond me! We got free souvenir Coke bottles and then headed out to go the place that I have been aching to go to since it open.

In case you didn't know, the Georgia Aquarium is home to the largest aquarium in the world which holds 6.3 million gallons of water. They don't use glass to hold back the fishies; Acryllic is 17 times stronger than glass and the stuff they use is 2 feet thick. They have four Whale Sharks which are like 20 something feet long, but guess what? THEY ARE ONLY BABIES! They are going to double in size! Wicked crazy. It was super fun. We saw Nemo and Dory and some cute sea otters. I pet some Sting Rays. Chris wanted me to pet the sharks but I REFUSED. I had a blast and got TONS of pictures.

Then we checked in to the gorgeous Hyatt Place hotel and got all dressed up to go to the Old Spagetti Factory. Delicious. We went and got ice cream at the amazing Zesto's which has the best soft serve ice cream I've ever tasted. Headed back to the hotel, watched SVU and went to sleep. We woke up the next day to find that the Zoo was closed because of the weather. LAME. We went on the CNN Studio Tour which was pretty cool. . . when I was in middle school. LOL It was ok. Then we went to the Varsity and ate. Afterwards we headed over to the Fernback and looked at some pretty wicked dinosaurs and played with little kid science experiment things. It's kind of geared for a smaller audience. We left, walked around Atlantic Station for literally five minutes and then headed back to Columbus because it was too cold.

Needless to say I had an amazing weekend and I love Chris for giving me such an amazing Christmas Present. I had a BLAST. But now school is back in session. I was late for my 9:00 AM because Giselle is in the shop and I had to take the shuttle, which I of course missed. Luckily I was only 5 minutes late. And now I'm off to my 11 Am which is Spanish. Then back downtown for Creative Dramatics at 1:00. Then to work! YAY! Will post more tomorrow with pictures!

My World is Changing, I'm Rearranging, Does That Mean Christmas Changes Too?

Christmas is in exactly 6 days. And I'm really indifferent about it. I'm feeling as if I've stepped through the looking glass and somehow ended up in December. Work has been really great as usal. Unfortunatly hours are going to be hard to come by after Christmas because we hired too many new people. I may have to taken a second job on the weekends. But the good news is I was selected to represent our store at the Chick-fil-A bowl at the Georgia Dome on New Year's Eve. But I don't think I'll actually get to watch the game after we're done working. . . never fear! I'll hopefully be hanging out with the beautiful Megan in Augusta land!

The love life is great. Christmas day will be two months for Christopher and I :) I love him.

I'm reading this book called Sex God. It's fantastic. I think I'm going to try to finish it on the way to Chris's family gathering tomorrow. Or today rather I guess since it's nearly 2:00 in the morning.

The Holiday is such a freaking cute movie.

I bought Chris fishies yesterday :) We named the black one Token. . . hahahahahahah ;)

I Only Know That I Belong Where You Are

This week has made me want to delete my facebook. Apparently, there has been a lot of drama going on with my friends from work. Since I have the luxury of having a life I don't live on it unlike some people I know. Literally every time I have pulled up may page this week, my news feed has been polluted with negative statuses and trash talking comments. It's really unnerving. I miss the days when everyone at work got along. And what's sad is that the drama has nothing to do with work or things that happen at work. But somehow it's all connected.

This crap irks me.

Anyway. . . things with Chris and I are still good.

I'm just bored. Not with anything inparticular. I think it's the weather. Nothing super exciting going on.

I learned today that my beautiful Giselle (with her minor injuries) not only is a fantastic car, she also doubles as a boat. Downtown and Macon Road were SUPER flooded today. I hate Georgia weather.

No let me rephrase, I just hate Georgia. I'm so ready to move out of this God-forsaken state. Who honest to God loves it here? I want to move away so badly. I just need some excitment in my life. I hate it when things get routine.

It's almost like that monotonous feeling I had over the summer. This is my day.

Class.
Shower.
Work.
Go to Chris's.
Sleep.

Wow. . . when you put it like that no wonder I'm bored.

I did escape to Starbucks for 45 minutes yesterday and basked in the bliss of enjoying a delicious latte and reading a book. I'd like to start every day like that.

The End.

So Maybe it's True That I Can't Live Without You and Maybe Two is Better Than One.

I've always loved Boys Like Girls but lately I've been listening to them a lot. They make me smile. And so does Christmas music! Now I can listen to it and be happy because it's CHRISTMAS TIME! I LOATHE it when people forget about Thanksgiving and skip on over to Christmas. It really rubs me the wrong way.

The other day was a month for me and Christopher. I'm surprised he's kept me around for this long. Things with us are great. I didn't think we would be able to spend Thanksgiving together but he came and ate with my family and I got to go spend time with his. I really love his family. I always envy people with larger families because mine has never been that way, even before we seperated. It makes me sad around the holidays to not have that experience. I really hope I marry into a large family because that's what I want. Kids running around, everyone being really loud, lots of food, and everyone getting a long. I just wish I was lucky enough to have that. Family has always been really important to me since I'm lacking in that department. It's always been super small and everyones normally angry at each other. It sucks. Who wants to go home to that?

Work is still good. :) I really wish I could work more. . . I like it for some odd reason. *Shrugs* Most days any way.

I miss my Megan. I wish I could make the pain go away sweetie :( You're too gorgeous to be single. I don't understand.

And then there's you. I wonder if you still read this. I doubt it, but I sometimes like it when I forget you exist. It stings a little when your name pops up on my phone. So I try not to answer. I'm over you.

India shared this song with me. It's kind of creepy how we're living each others lives right now :) I love my Inja the Ninja! It reminds me of when Christopher and I first started talking. <3

Near to You- A Fine Frenzy

I love Christopher. Honestly, I never thought I could love like this again. As corny as it sounds he really knocked me off my feet when I wasn't looking. Yes it's soon. But when life ends as you know it, you just know. I think I was so scared because I knew we we're perfect for each other. Everything just clicked.

My mom told me some startling stats that I didn't know about my dad and her. Apparently on their third date my dad told my mom he was going to marry her. Christopher said something similar to me early on in our relationship. My mom married at 21. I turn 21 in July. SCARYNESS!!!!! It's just weird to think about.


But even if we don't stay together (Hoping we do though), Christopher's given me the best gift anyone could ever give: He taught me how to love again. :)

I'm So Addicted To All the Things You Do <3

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! Despite the minor setback of my directing analysis and an unfortunate car accident, this week has been amazing. Yeah the front bumper of my car is gone :( My parents are pissed and so am I.

I'm really into Chris. He's got all the attentive qualties that I love without being overbearing. I didn't think it was possible. We've been together everyday this week and can I just say I'm crazy about him. It's very bizarre because I don't usually get too attached. . . and I'm starting to. No good. But I'm trying to be careful and remember to continue to think with my head and not my heart.

Last night we were snuggling and he told me that I make him really happy, and he hasn't felt like that with a girl in a long time. Then he asked me to be his girlfriend :) And I said yes. YAY! Man, Chris has thrown me for a loop. Right when I was thinking I was never gonna get over Micah and never be ok, he shows up and knocks me off of my feet.

He let me stay asleep after he left for class. And literally 20 minutes before he came back home, I had a stupid nightmare :( WHY!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?????????

I'm gonna have to tell him. He has to know :( It's not fair to hide it from him. I waws just hoping this could wait. . .

I want to trust him.

And that's even scarier. I'm falling for him.

Could We Begin Again? Once Upon a Dream :)

WOW. That's really all I can say about this weekend. First of all I hang out with Josh, Travis, Chris, Ramsey, Lindsey, Ashton, Ashley and Jordan on Saturday. We had a blast doing the Cinnamon Challenge and just goofing off. Late that night, were were just chilling and I was on my laptop and this guy that I'd been talking to online facebooked me. I should have known better because it was definitely booty call hours but he asked me to come over and watch a movie so I did. I have never been so pissed off in my entire life. I'm ok with kissing and stuff, but my God. . . after telling the guy 6 times that I don't want to have sex you'd think he'd get the picture! It was awful. And I was on freaking Base so I had no idea where the hell I was.

It was terrible.

I was upset the next day and really ashamed of myself. The day before I had sent a message to an old friend that I hadn't seen in almost a year. And he decided he wanted to take me out. Ok so maybe I planted the idea in his head. :) How about some background info shall we?

When I was a wee freshman in college I had an immediate roommate named Jessica Cannon. She really made my first semester. . . interesting. :) You see she was dating this guy named Chris who treated her like a Queen. And she didn't deserve him. Jess was not the best person in the world and was kind of attention starved. She made up all these lies about Chris and eventually got me, the RAs and the police involved. It was terrible. And then they got back together. Go figure huh? Anyway, Chris kind of confided in me a couple of times through the semester and I'd say we were definitely friends. But it was hard when things went sour with Jess and him because I didn't know who's side to be on. To avoid awkwardness in my living situation I stopped talking to him. After Jess moved out he and I chatted a few times but that was really it. The following Fall semester he asked me on a date. Randomly. Hadn't talked to the guy in MONTHS. I went out with him but I wasn't so sure about the whole thing. I was super busy with school and work and RA that I didn't think a relationship would be smart. Plus he CLEARLY was not over Jess. They were still having issues. So I let a good guy go. And didn't really think about it too much.

So the other day he popped up on my news feed on Facebook. And let me tell you this guy was cute before, but he got some tats, slimmed down some, and OMG he's freakin hott now! Obviously, I had to message him and see what he'd been up to. And maybe he'd still like me and wanna take me out.

Of course, I'm a wonderful planter of ideas and he took me up on it. Sunday night we went to see Paranormal Activity and got dinner. BTW it was freakin scary as hell! I was really scared after the movie and didn't wanna go home. I mean come on have you seen my apartment? Alone at night, it's pretty scary. So he asked me if I wanted to go hangout with him at his place and I thought that it was a perfect idea. :) We went to his place and watched TV in his room. . . ok confession I was falling asleep in his arms and HE was watching TV. But I was content. It got later and later and i was really sleepy and trying to stay awake. And the whole time we were cuddling he didn't try anything. He didn't even kiss me. I couldn't believe it. It was wonderful to NOT be pressured for it. And that's when I knew that he was perfect lol.

He was playing with my hair and stroking my face and then FINALLY he kissed me. Soft, sweet, perfect. It was great. And then we realized what time it was and he asked me if I wanted to stay the night. . . and I felt so. . . I don't know. . . giddy? Happy? Ridiculous? I stayed. And I'm so happy i did. It was wonderful. No pressure. He just held me. And it just felt right ya know? Like that's what I was suppose to be doing and that's where I was suppose to be. We woke up this morning super early because he had class. And he just gently pushed my hair out of my face and looked at me and told me I was pretty. And I melted. So simple and so genuine. :) We laid in bed for a while just holding each other and stealing kisses every now and then. It was wonderful. And then we got up and he took me home and he went to class.

And I've been walking around with this stupid grin on my face all day. Gosh I feel like I'm in high school again. . . which worries me lol. But I'm not gonna worry. I deserve to go out with a gorgeous and awesome guy. So I'm going to. Nuff said.

Now I need my beauty sleep. I'm gonna see him super early tomorrow :)

Hooray!

I'm Your Biggest Fan, I'll Follow You Until You Love Me. . . Papa, Papparazzi :)

SO the past few days have put a lot of things in to perspective. On Sunday Mrs. Tyson, my theatre teacher from high school let me come and see a dress rehearsal of the Insanity of Mary Girard which is their One-Act Competition piece. She wanted my critique of the production before they go and compete. It really meant a lot to me that she wanted my opinion of the production and views me as a colleague and not a former student :) The show was great and I'm sure LHS is gonna kick some ass at State!

And the hott guy that I went on a date with has dropped off the face of the earth. . . typical.

BUT NEVER FEAR! A new guy is on the fore-front of winning my heart. We've been talking since Saturday and I'm really liking him a lot. Unfortunatly he is serving our country in Afghanistan and won't be back until March. Sad day. But he is a Christian, super tall, has tattoos, and is making GREAT conversation. Normally, guys write one or two sentences (maybe a paragraph if you're lucky), but this guy. . . man he's writing PAGES! I'm constantly checking my mail waiting to hear from him. He's fantastic. I've got a little crush ;) I'm hoping maybe we can Skype soon. He's really cute. . . and adorable. . . and I like him a lot.

Work's been ok. I wish people would listen to me when I make suggestions. I'm normally right lol. . . still holding out for that promotion.

Fall break was good. GTC starts tomorrow so hopefully that will be fun. No theatre classes! But I have a midterm in my one main campus class in a few hours. Gross I know but I love the class and it's super easy.

I'm thinking about Micah less and less nowadays. I think I might finally be getting over it! Yay for progress! It freakin took me long enough!

Hmm. . . I wonder what time it is in Afghanistan?

Why Does Love Always Feel Like a Battlefield?

So my date went amazingly. I had a GREAT time, and it was nice to go out with someone different and not result back to the same comfortable repeats I always keep up with. It was wonderful to take a risk and live a little. Jake is gorgeous and hilarious and I'd like to go out with him again, but we shall see.

Work has been good. I'm getting a LOT of hours again which is fantastic.

I think I'm finally getting the picture with Micah. He deleted his facebook and got a new one and didn't ask me to be his friend. I haven't heard from him in 2 weeks and when I finally did cave and texted him, it didn't sound like he was thrilled to talk to me. Why am I wasting my energy on caring about someone who could careless if I text them or not? My point exactly. It's stupid. So if he does't care if he's a part of my life, fine. So be it. I'm exhausted from caring hahaha.

Sadly, my Tigers lost today :( That's ok Florida's over-rated anyway.

Boys are stupid.

Hickies are fun. . . and funny.

Sometimes absence makes the heart grow fonder. And sometimes it's not true. I realize that I don't really miss you all that much. In fact, I don't even love you all that much. Sucks don't it? I'm sorry that you're in love with me and I don't feel the same way. You're a great friend though, does that count?

I'm in Henry County. . . And it's good to hang out with my puppy and parents. . . But I'm ready to go back to Columbus and get into some trouble :)

Cause You Know, I Don't Do Sadness Not Even a Little Bit, Just Don't Need it in My Life, Don't Want Any Part of it. . .

Despite the icky grossness that is occupying the air outside, today has been a pretty sweet day. Kim let us have a field trip in theatre practice. Yum Dunkin Donuts coffee :) And now I'm fixing to take a Stage Make-Up test on cuts and bruises. The class is super fun and I'm learning a lot. Work last night was horrendous and I'm hoping today will be better.

Tomorrow I'm going on a date with someone new. I'm excited about it but at the same time I'm just hoping that he's not in it for long term or anything. Boys are my favorite waste of time. He seems like he'll be fun to have around for a spell.

But I'm super stoked about going home this weekend. I miss my puppy. And my parents. And a certain someone that I'm not even planning on mentioning to him that I'm gonna be in town. I don't think he'll care. And even if he did, we won't hang out. By the way I haven't heard from him in over a week, because I'm being a big girl and waiting on him to text me. I think I'm realizing that he's not going to. . .

But that's ok. I love him anyway. Pathetic, I know. It's not that serious. :) But I'm hanging in there and enjoying the autumnal pleasures that October is bringing. Life is wonderful :)

Can't wait for Halloween. I'm thinking of doing another Wizard of Oz character. . . maybe a sexy Dorothy or Galinda?

It's Chill in the Wind But it's Warm in Your Arms. . . We've All Got Our Junk, and My Junk is You.

The weather today is GORGEOUS! I love the fall. It reminds me of so many things. . . mainly high school related and early college years. Like to me the soundtrack for fall is Spring Awakening. I love driving home in the morning hours with the windows down and the radio blasting My Junk and Don't Do Sadness. Football, Colorguard, Pretty sunny days with a cool breeze and light sweaters, the leaves changing, Halloween, going home, Thanksgiving. . . I just love it. It also reminds me of happy times relationship wise. October is such a romantic month. Well, I guess since I haven't been updating much I should probably recount my actions for the past few weeks.

I've been as busy as ever doing crew things for Streetcar and Tortuga. I've also been working up a storm. My first directing analysis nearly killed me. I know I did horribly because I waited so long to start it. My next one will be amazing. Luckily my scene goes up Thursday and it's going to be wonderful. My actors are really great and have done a fantastic job.

As for my romantic affairs. . . basically I've decided I need to hand out pamphlets to all boys who are seeking anything with me. In it, it shall plainly state that I am a horrible, selfish, girl who has a lot of baggage and is already in love with a man that you could never even dream of competing with. So please don't start falling for me because I still have a lot of growing up I need to do. I'm so tired of leading all of these guys on. I know what I want. And I know I can't have it. That doesn't change the fact that I want to try still. Isn't that stupid? I mean good God it's been almost 6 months. Shouldn't I be over it by now?

Kenny and Sarah on CosmoRadio did a special about breakups. I need to find out when the replay is and have a listen.

I think I'm horribly selfish because even though I'm more than aware of my faults, I still want that companionship. I still want someone to love me, even though I really don't have anything left to give in return. How awful am I?

I hate that I hurt him. . . and I hate that I'm not making it any easier. I just hate myself for all this garbage.

Damnit. . . one day I'll be over it. But today is not the day. And until I stop talking the talk and start walking the walk. . . I'm probably just going to find a new victim to take on.

Please pray for me that I'll kill off my selfish desires and think about the other people I'm hurting. I think deep down I want someone to feel just as badly as I do.

This is real, this is ME! by JamieLynn07 featuring Old Navy

And On Paper We're Great and Our Stars are Alligned and it Looks Like it Was All Meant to be, But Night After Night I Keep Shutting My Eyes. . .

School is finally in full swing and I'm loving it. It's hard working and going to school but there is nothing else I would rather be doing. Less stress and less mess than previous semesters. This weekend was pretty great and sucky at the same time. But everything has its highs and lows right? We went and saw Final Destination (which is terrible by the way, save yourself some money and don't see it.) and Halloween 2 which was phenomenal! Saturday I had to work and afterwards I headed over to see my most favoritest person India at the Cantina. Then we got Starbucks and headed to the mall for some bonding time. I then found out that one of my dear friends Scott, may not be doing so well. So please keep him in your prayers. Scott, be brave and you're gonna be fine :) And then I got food poisoning. . . EVIL CANTINA! I was really bad off. Throwing up and lower back pain. Luckily, Chris came to my rescue and brought me medicine :) I got a lot of sleep and felt better today. Then I was faced with the reality of homework. . . sad day.

I see and hear things about you and it makes me freak out irrationally. Why should I still care? I'm really confused about a lot of things. I kind of feel like Allie in the Notebook. . . it's not that simple. No matter what I do someone's going to get hurt. But it shouldn't be about other people. I need to stop worrying about hurting other people and worry about what I want. What do I want?

I wish I knew.

Luckily, Victoria's Secret get's me through the tough times ;)

And I miss Megan Waite Steinberg more than life itself. MEGAN GET YOUR ASS TO COLUMBUS OR TELL ME WHEN I CAN SEE YOU!

It Starts Like This the Fourth, the Fifth, the Minor Fall, and the Major Lift and the Baffled King Composing Hallelujah

I haven't updated in a while and have quite a few things to catch up on. Let's go over the highlights shall we? Last month was my birthday. I turned the big 20 *whimpers* and all in all my actual birthday was really low key. Two days before I went White-Water Rafting with my church and had a BLAST. I freaking love rafting and wish I had the opportunity to do it more. My goal is to eventually complete the Olympic level course at Ocoee. I also want to try some other rivers since that's the only one I've ever done. But I came back and hung out with my mom the next day. We went to IKEA (which is like freakin HUGE!). The next day was my birthday. Really boring. The cake my mom ordered didn't come in because the company ran out of cookie dough for the day :( So Jamie didn't get an awesome birthday cookie cake. No worries. The next day I had a dentist appointment and went out to eat with my family before heading out to go see 42nd St with my mom. Super awesome!

And then I came back to Columbus. Back to reality. And bills. And work. Then me and some of the girls took a trip to Panama City, which was AMAZING. . . despite the minor drama setback. And now school starts in a few days. I have Convo friday which I'm kind of excited about. I miss my theatre friends and I miss school surprisingly. I'm so ready for directing. It's gonna be awesome!