I'm So Addicted To All the Things You Do <3

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! Despite the minor setback of my directing analysis and an unfortunate car accident, this week has been amazing. Yeah the front bumper of my car is gone :( My parents are pissed and so am I.

I'm really into Chris. He's got all the attentive qualties that I love without being overbearing. I didn't think it was possible. We've been together everyday this week and can I just say I'm crazy about him. It's very bizarre because I don't usually get too attached. . . and I'm starting to. No good. But I'm trying to be careful and remember to continue to think with my head and not my heart.

Last night we were snuggling and he told me that I make him really happy, and he hasn't felt like that with a girl in a long time. Then he asked me to be his girlfriend :) And I said yes. YAY! Man, Chris has thrown me for a loop. Right when I was thinking I was never gonna get over Micah and never be ok, he shows up and knocks me off of my feet.

He let me stay asleep after he left for class. And literally 20 minutes before he came back home, I had a stupid nightmare :( WHY!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?????????

I'm gonna have to tell him. He has to know :( It's not fair to hide it from him. I waws just hoping this could wait. . .

I want to trust him.

And that's even scarier. I'm falling for him.

Could We Begin Again? Once Upon a Dream :)

WOW. That's really all I can say about this weekend. First of all I hang out with Josh, Travis, Chris, Ramsey, Lindsey, Ashton, Ashley and Jordan on Saturday. We had a blast doing the Cinnamon Challenge and just goofing off. Late that night, were were just chilling and I was on my laptop and this guy that I'd been talking to online facebooked me. I should have known better because it was definitely booty call hours but he asked me to come over and watch a movie so I did. I have never been so pissed off in my entire life. I'm ok with kissing and stuff, but my God. . . after telling the guy 6 times that I don't want to have sex you'd think he'd get the picture! It was awful. And I was on freaking Base so I had no idea where the hell I was.

It was terrible.

I was upset the next day and really ashamed of myself. The day before I had sent a message to an old friend that I hadn't seen in almost a year. And he decided he wanted to take me out. Ok so maybe I planted the idea in his head. :) How about some background info shall we?

When I was a wee freshman in college I had an immediate roommate named Jessica Cannon. She really made my first semester. . . interesting. :) You see she was dating this guy named Chris who treated her like a Queen. And she didn't deserve him. Jess was not the best person in the world and was kind of attention starved. She made up all these lies about Chris and eventually got me, the RAs and the police involved. It was terrible. And then they got back together. Go figure huh? Anyway, Chris kind of confided in me a couple of times through the semester and I'd say we were definitely friends. But it was hard when things went sour with Jess and him because I didn't know who's side to be on. To avoid awkwardness in my living situation I stopped talking to him. After Jess moved out he and I chatted a few times but that was really it. The following Fall semester he asked me on a date. Randomly. Hadn't talked to the guy in MONTHS. I went out with him but I wasn't so sure about the whole thing. I was super busy with school and work and RA that I didn't think a relationship would be smart. Plus he CLEARLY was not over Jess. They were still having issues. So I let a good guy go. And didn't really think about it too much.

So the other day he popped up on my news feed on Facebook. And let me tell you this guy was cute before, but he got some tats, slimmed down some, and OMG he's freakin hott now! Obviously, I had to message him and see what he'd been up to. And maybe he'd still like me and wanna take me out.

Of course, I'm a wonderful planter of ideas and he took me up on it. Sunday night we went to see Paranormal Activity and got dinner. BTW it was freakin scary as hell! I was really scared after the movie and didn't wanna go home. I mean come on have you seen my apartment? Alone at night, it's pretty scary. So he asked me if I wanted to go hangout with him at his place and I thought that it was a perfect idea. :) We went to his place and watched TV in his room. . . ok confession I was falling asleep in his arms and HE was watching TV. But I was content. It got later and later and i was really sleepy and trying to stay awake. And the whole time we were cuddling he didn't try anything. He didn't even kiss me. I couldn't believe it. It was wonderful to NOT be pressured for it. And that's when I knew that he was perfect lol.

He was playing with my hair and stroking my face and then FINALLY he kissed me. Soft, sweet, perfect. It was great. And then we realized what time it was and he asked me if I wanted to stay the night. . . and I felt so. . . I don't know. . . giddy? Happy? Ridiculous? I stayed. And I'm so happy i did. It was wonderful. No pressure. He just held me. And it just felt right ya know? Like that's what I was suppose to be doing and that's where I was suppose to be. We woke up this morning super early because he had class. And he just gently pushed my hair out of my face and looked at me and told me I was pretty. And I melted. So simple and so genuine. :) We laid in bed for a while just holding each other and stealing kisses every now and then. It was wonderful. And then we got up and he took me home and he went to class.

And I've been walking around with this stupid grin on my face all day. Gosh I feel like I'm in high school again. . . which worries me lol. But I'm not gonna worry. I deserve to go out with a gorgeous and awesome guy. So I'm going to. Nuff said.

Now I need my beauty sleep. I'm gonna see him super early tomorrow :)

Hooray!

I'm Your Biggest Fan, I'll Follow You Until You Love Me. . . Papa, Papparazzi :)

SO the past few days have put a lot of things in to perspective. On Sunday Mrs. Tyson, my theatre teacher from high school let me come and see a dress rehearsal of the Insanity of Mary Girard which is their One-Act Competition piece. She wanted my critique of the production before they go and compete. It really meant a lot to me that she wanted my opinion of the production and views me as a colleague and not a former student :) The show was great and I'm sure LHS is gonna kick some ass at State!

And the hott guy that I went on a date with has dropped off the face of the earth. . . typical.

BUT NEVER FEAR! A new guy is on the fore-front of winning my heart. We've been talking since Saturday and I'm really liking him a lot. Unfortunatly he is serving our country in Afghanistan and won't be back until March. Sad day. But he is a Christian, super tall, has tattoos, and is making GREAT conversation. Normally, guys write one or two sentences (maybe a paragraph if you're lucky), but this guy. . . man he's writing PAGES! I'm constantly checking my mail waiting to hear from him. He's fantastic. I've got a little crush ;) I'm hoping maybe we can Skype soon. He's really cute. . . and adorable. . . and I like him a lot.

Work's been ok. I wish people would listen to me when I make suggestions. I'm normally right lol. . . still holding out for that promotion.

Fall break was good. GTC starts tomorrow so hopefully that will be fun. No theatre classes! But I have a midterm in my one main campus class in a few hours. Gross I know but I love the class and it's super easy.

I'm thinking about Micah less and less nowadays. I think I might finally be getting over it! Yay for progress! It freakin took me long enough!

Hmm. . . I wonder what time it is in Afghanistan?

Why Does Love Always Feel Like a Battlefield?

So my date went amazingly. I had a GREAT time, and it was nice to go out with someone different and not result back to the same comfortable repeats I always keep up with. It was wonderful to take a risk and live a little. Jake is gorgeous and hilarious and I'd like to go out with him again, but we shall see.

Work has been good. I'm getting a LOT of hours again which is fantastic.

I think I'm finally getting the picture with Micah. He deleted his facebook and got a new one and didn't ask me to be his friend. I haven't heard from him in 2 weeks and when I finally did cave and texted him, it didn't sound like he was thrilled to talk to me. Why am I wasting my energy on caring about someone who could careless if I text them or not? My point exactly. It's stupid. So if he does't care if he's a part of my life, fine. So be it. I'm exhausted from caring hahaha.

Sadly, my Tigers lost today :( That's ok Florida's over-rated anyway.

Boys are stupid.

Hickies are fun. . . and funny.

Sometimes absence makes the heart grow fonder. And sometimes it's not true. I realize that I don't really miss you all that much. In fact, I don't even love you all that much. Sucks don't it? I'm sorry that you're in love with me and I don't feel the same way. You're a great friend though, does that count?

I'm in Henry County. . . And it's good to hang out with my puppy and parents. . . But I'm ready to go back to Columbus and get into some trouble :)

Cause You Know, I Don't Do Sadness Not Even a Little Bit, Just Don't Need it in My Life, Don't Want Any Part of it. . .

Despite the icky grossness that is occupying the air outside, today has been a pretty sweet day. Kim let us have a field trip in theatre practice. Yum Dunkin Donuts coffee :) And now I'm fixing to take a Stage Make-Up test on cuts and bruises. The class is super fun and I'm learning a lot. Work last night was horrendous and I'm hoping today will be better.

Tomorrow I'm going on a date with someone new. I'm excited about it but at the same time I'm just hoping that he's not in it for long term or anything. Boys are my favorite waste of time. He seems like he'll be fun to have around for a spell.

But I'm super stoked about going home this weekend. I miss my puppy. And my parents. And a certain someone that I'm not even planning on mentioning to him that I'm gonna be in town. I don't think he'll care. And even if he did, we won't hang out. By the way I haven't heard from him in over a week, because I'm being a big girl and waiting on him to text me. I think I'm realizing that he's not going to. . .

But that's ok. I love him anyway. Pathetic, I know. It's not that serious. :) But I'm hanging in there and enjoying the autumnal pleasures that October is bringing. Life is wonderful :)

Can't wait for Halloween. I'm thinking of doing another Wizard of Oz character. . . maybe a sexy Dorothy or Galinda?