So Maybe it's True That I Can't Live Without You and Maybe Two is Better Than One.

I've always loved Boys Like Girls but lately I've been listening to them a lot. They make me smile. And so does Christmas music! Now I can listen to it and be happy because it's CHRISTMAS TIME! I LOATHE it when people forget about Thanksgiving and skip on over to Christmas. It really rubs me the wrong way.

The other day was a month for me and Christopher. I'm surprised he's kept me around for this long. Things with us are great. I didn't think we would be able to spend Thanksgiving together but he came and ate with my family and I got to go spend time with his. I really love his family. I always envy people with larger families because mine has never been that way, even before we seperated. It makes me sad around the holidays to not have that experience. I really hope I marry into a large family because that's what I want. Kids running around, everyone being really loud, lots of food, and everyone getting a long. I just wish I was lucky enough to have that. Family has always been really important to me since I'm lacking in that department. It's always been super small and everyones normally angry at each other. It sucks. Who wants to go home to that?

Work is still good. :) I really wish I could work more. . . I like it for some odd reason. *Shrugs* Most days any way.

I miss my Megan. I wish I could make the pain go away sweetie :( You're too gorgeous to be single. I don't understand.

And then there's you. I wonder if you still read this. I doubt it, but I sometimes like it when I forget you exist. It stings a little when your name pops up on my phone. So I try not to answer. I'm over you.

India shared this song with me. It's kind of creepy how we're living each others lives right now :) I love my Inja the Ninja! It reminds me of when Christopher and I first started talking. <3

Near to You- A Fine Frenzy

I love Christopher. Honestly, I never thought I could love like this again. As corny as it sounds he really knocked me off my feet when I wasn't looking. Yes it's soon. But when life ends as you know it, you just know. I think I was so scared because I knew we we're perfect for each other. Everything just clicked.

My mom told me some startling stats that I didn't know about my dad and her. Apparently on their third date my dad told my mom he was going to marry her. Christopher said something similar to me early on in our relationship. My mom married at 21. I turn 21 in July. SCARYNESS!!!!! It's just weird to think about.


But even if we don't stay together (Hoping we do though), Christopher's given me the best gift anyone could ever give: He taught me how to love again. :)